I'm tired. Exhausted, in fact. All my life I've tried to please others so they would like me. It's just who I am. A people pleaser and occasionally a door mat extraordinaire. A smiling chameleon. I can be whoever you want me to be.
Many (many) years ago my kindergarten teacher wrote in the comment section of my report card- "Lori needs to stop caring so much about what people think about her."
Wow.
While walking this evening I realized this isn't the life God wants me to lead. He made me and loves me
all. the. time.
I can't earn His love.
I can't buy His love.
It's just simply, beautifully there for me.
Starting tomorrow I'm going to focus on my family. They love me, too. Much more than I deserve. Friends come and go but the Lord is with you forever.
Do you know how much you are loved? God adores you- treasures you- more than anyone ever could. You don't have to be thinner, more popular, have a nicer car, or even belong to the country club clique.
Be you.
God loves you just the way you are.
No more smiling chameleon.
I love you!
ReplyDeleteI love your heart!
I think you're beautiful!
Just the way you are!!!!!
Love you, too, Robin. Thank you for always, always being there for me and for being the big sister I always dreamed of. <3 Lori
ReplyDeleteaw! I love you SOOO..as Taylor-Austyn would say..and she does!!
ReplyDeleteIt has taken me a couple of years to get into the "who cares if YOU like me..I like me just fine." It is so hard not to care..but you just have to know being good and kind is usually not the way everyone else wants to be so they use those that are..as doorsteps,totally. Not fair!!
Tristan- I LOVE you, too! You're a true and amazing friend! <3 Lori
ReplyDeleteI'm so blessed to call you a bloggy friend... this post is just another reason that I look up to you! xo
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your sweet words, Rachael. You are an absolute sunshine in my life!:) Lori
ReplyDeleteLori, you are the most genuine and loving person I know in my whole life. I truly believe God steered you into my life and has worked through you to reach me many times over the years. I hope you will always be my sister and that we will share more fun times together in the future. You know you don't need to be a 'Smiling Chameleon' around me! Love you. Lindsay x
ReplyDeleteLindsay-You have me almost in tears with your sweet words! You will always be the sister of my heart- always. God certainly brought us together. He is so good. You have always been there for me and understand me so well. What would I do without you? I don't ever want to find out.:) Lori
ReplyDeleteI love you just the way you are and I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! Not a week has gone by in the past year that I haven't thought of you and truly deeply missed you. I miss your smile, your laughter and how REAL you are. Love you sweetie.... I think you should add to your summer list... OKLAHOMA ;)
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