My dear, dear friends- Why did I wait to tell you? What was I thinking? You
have all lifted me up out of my puddle of misery and given me joy, strength and
such power! My friend, Alicia (a wonderful Prayer Warrior), told me today that I
looked completely different than a week ago and I told her it was all because of my
sweet friends that took the time to comfort me, revive me and pray for me. Thank
you so much for your love and friendship. I have an Army of Prayer
Warriors and this gives me confidence and peace. God is in control and all IS
I am *wallowing*. I miss you all, but I have been busy having my own personal pity party. I found out that I have a benign (thank the Lord) parotid tumor on my neck. I really don't want to talk about it, but I did want to let you know why I have been absent. God has a plan for me, but this is not a chapter that I wanted to have in the book of my life. God had other plans.:)
I will have to have surgery as the tumor can become cancerous (although 80%+ of the time it is not- another thank you, Lord!) and it will more than likely grow. It is unnoticeable right now but I was able to find it. There is a large part of my that wishes I had not. You know- ignorance is bliss!
The surgery is *tricky* as stated by my doctor and that is not something I want to hear. Facial nerves pass through your parotid gland (salivary gland) and there is a chance that you may lose the ability to smile and/or wink plus it is near your carotid artery and jugular so there is a chance of a heart attack and stroke. The surgery is 4-6 hours long. My doctor did tell me that a friend of his waited 35 years to have the surgery so I feel that I am not pushed for time, but I feel like I have a death sentence. The whole "adventure" is hanging over my head.
I will tell you that I am truly *savoring* each day. Perhaps that is part of God's plan? Stop taking things for granted? I will talk with my doctor and see if we should end up going to Mayo, Johns Hopkins, etc. Please keep me in your prayers, dear friends. I love you all so much! It is so good to know God is my team leader and he loves me. That is what helps me sleep at night.:)